How is it that things will change?

Holidays are coming! YEAH! 3 weeks! But then again CAs are piling up, maybe this time it's slower but it's still THE CAs. Gah. I was thinking of getting a job during the holidays and earning extra money for the preparation to spend like crazy on Taylor merch.

One can never have too many LOVELOVELOVE bracelets. You can wear 10 on one arm and 10 on the other, no probs. I'm really looks forward to that. HEHE. Maybe I can find some lax job that with flexible timings so that I can do my projects and have some "me" time.

I bought Sims 3 Late Night today. Don't know whether it's on impulse or not cuz I kinda planned to purchase it and even have a rough idea what to create.

Oh! I just received a call asking for payment for the TaySwift fanclub T-shirt. Seriously, I don't know what I was thinking about when I ordered it. It's ORANGE. O-R-A-N-G-E! GAH! Anyway, I'll just erm wear some cardigan over that. WHY WOULD ANYONE PICK ORANGE? NO ONE LOOKS GOOD IN ORANGE. Jeez! I chose black but those Swifties have no idea…orange pffft. I like orange BUT not bright, construction workers, Naruto jumpsuit orange!

Okay, dinner's here! All the misery above are mostly self-inflicted. As usual.

Thankful For Swift

Taylor and her bestie, Abigail!

NBC had a thanksgiving special on Taylor. Her lives are really awesome TTM! XD

All the clips of the special have these little sections that tells us how the song she performed came. So cool right?  

Story Of Us

Haunted

Mean

Enchanted

Back To December

And of course Long Live

YAY FOR COUNTRY!

BMI! Country song writer of the year!

CMAs (Country Music Award) ended but Taylor didn't win anything. Miranda Lambert got most of the awards and I'm not upset about that cuz Miranda is a great country artist whom I also adore (not as mush as Taylor though >.<). Lady Antebellum won the best vocal group and single of the year. They are THAT good, seriously. I LOVE THEM ALL! 

Hehe. I'm supposed to be in the midst of studying for tomorrow's VPPP test but I'm just totally bored out of my wits to go on without a 'mini' break here and there. XD

Argh! Can the person who borrow Lost season 1 volume 2 RETURN the DVD so I can continue watching in chronological order?! 

Speak Now is too 'new' to be considered into the CMAs this year but who knows, next year it's Taylor's year. She'll have 4-5 awards in her arms again in no time :P

Bring on all the pretenders, I'm not afraid

Being lazy to even log in to post something is a very absurd reason to not post anything at all. But it's really frustrating that the 'Remember me' thing doesn't work at times and I have to sign in manually all over again each time. 

I'll be bulldozing about Taylor again! HEHE.

YAY! So I got the album, found out that I've been cheated but heck care I feel great and I had the album on loop for the longest time (it still is)! I like it how each album surpasses the previous ones in every way and Speak Now is an album that every song on it can be made into a single and people would fight dragons to get their hands on it. XD

My favourite song on this album has got to be Long Live. It's a song that she wrote for her band and everyone who is in this together. Long Live all the magic we made! 

Taylor's story behind Long Live:

"Long Live," (in parentheses "We Will Be Remembered"), is the first song where I've ever had parentheses in the title. Besides that, though, this song is about my band, and my producer, and all the people who have helped us build this brick by brick. The fans, the people who I feel that we are all in this together, this song talks about the triumphant moments that we've had in the last two years. We've had times where we just jump up and down, and dance like we don't care how we're dancing, and just scream at the top of our lungs, "How is this happening?" And, I feel very lucky to even have had one of those moments, nonetheless all the ones that I got to have.

"Long Live" is about how I feel reflecting on it. This song for me is like looking at a photo album of all the award shows, and all the stadium shows, and all the hands in the air in the crowd. It's sort of the first love song that I've written to my team. 

(Purple because that's her favourite colour!)

Long Live 

I said remember this moment
In the back of my mind
The time we stood with our shaking hands
The crowds in stands went wild
We were the kings and the queens
And they read off our names
The night you danced like you knew our lives would never be the same
You held your head like a hero on a history book page
It was the end of a decade
But the start of an age
Long live the walls we crashed through
How the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming long live all the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders
One day we will be remembered

I said remember this feeling
I pass the pictures around
Of all the years that we stood there on the sidelines
Wishing for right now
We are the kings and the queens
You traded your baseball cap for a crown
When they gave us our trophies
And we held them up for our town
And the cynics were outraged
Screaming this is absurd
Cause for a moment a band of thieves in ripped up jeans got to rule the world

Long live the walls we crashed through
How the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming long live all the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders
I'm not afraid
Long live all the mountains we moved
I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
I was screaming long live that look on your face
And bring on all the pretenders
One day we will be remembered

Hold on to spinning around
Confetti falls to the ground
May these memories break our fall

Will you take a moment, promise me this
That you'll stand by me forever
But if God forbid fate should step in
And force us into a goodbye
If you have children someday
When they point to the pictures
Please tell them my name
Tell them how the crowds went wild
Tell them how I hope they shine

Long live the walls we crashed through
I had the time of my life with you

Long long live the walls we crashed through
How the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
And I was screaming long live
All the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders, I'm not afraid
Singing long live all the mountains we moved
I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
And long long live the look on your face
And bring on all the pretenders
One day we will be remembered

At the end of our years together, you'll know everything about Taylor.

REpost. HAHA!

SIG!

LOVE! 

No, nothing's stoping me now.

Before everything I just wanna say, I DO love my parents. They moulded me into the way I am, whether I hate it or not. But sometimes, everything just falls.

Hey. Don't blame me for thinking that other people's parents are better than mine. The not-letting-me-hang-out-with-friends is one thing but promising me something and going back on it is a whole new situation all together. My eyes are swollen and my jaws ache from me trying to stop them from shaking.
I already told them before that I'm going to the concert and all AND they even offered to pay more than half of the price for me.

And then just today I told them that the discount was no more and I need to pay the full $178 this monday and they just bite back at me saying oh no you didn't tell us about that and we are NOT paying. They even accuse that my friend might be cheating me. WTH! And then they went on about how why I'm not buying the cheapest ticket or just don't go. Of course I told them that it's Taylor! I can't NOT go! You can blame me for being a spoilt brat but PLEASE don't go saying Taylor made me rebel and all. NO! SHE CHANGED MY LIFE AND IT'S NOT LIKE I'M WATCHING TAYLOR LIVES EVERY MONTH! Then the rant about how they are the ones bringing the money in and I shouldn't spend their money like it's free or what came upon me.

The thing is, I don't ask my parents for extra money or such. Everything that feeds my wants are all paid by me saving my pocket money cent by cent and purchasing them myself. I even told them that I don't need Christmas or birthday presents for that ticket but heck, they told me that they can just don't buy anything. Telling me that I should not buy storybooks and "useless things" and suggesting that they should cut my money so that I've just enough to buy food. Seriously, is it just my parents?

Another thing is threatening to throw away my computer cuz I'm not spending enough time with them in the living room (hello, we spend the whole weekends together all the time?) and blaming the internet for teaching me to stand up against them. I know they expect me to be that girl who just do EVERYTHING her parents say. But I'm growing up aren't I? AND telling me that I can quit poly cuz it's changing me. People change. From child to teen. If they can't accept this, then how am I to become an adult.

Sometimes, I wonder if they're really want me to live with no computer, no storybooks, no music and just do house chores all day as though I'm just a daughter with no likes and wants just some child that they feed and send to school.

What hurts me most is that, it's MY parents that are holding my passion and dreams back. Not anyone else. I would think that parents are supportive are there for you on your worst days but hell no. Not for me.

Too much protection just makes me want freedom more.

Don't break me too much, I might not be able to pick those pieces up again.

Don't worry Jazzy. I'm paying for the tickets and going to see Taylor even if it kills me.